I bite my own tongue!!!!

okay.. i'm not trying to commit suicide here.... bit it while chewing a curry puff and toking to mum... and it was a damn hard bite... it's ****ing pain..... there are 2 ulcers one small one on top with a bit of blood clot and one very big one at the bottom meaning below the tongue... Everyone saw my nick in msn says i kiss too much *sad*...... just saw the doctor this afternoon, she gave me a cream to apply on the ulcer, and i have to apply it every 4 hours... dunno y suddenly felt like i got a lot of saliva when i tried not to swallow it.. cos will kana the cream then like macham i eat all the cream like tt.. horrible...sorry grace.. have to use your word... lolz.. so painfull leh.... somemore dun have MC... haiz.. cannot muack muack le... :(
Just recover from a cracked lips, the crack is very jialat one also.. all very dry.. then the side of the lips that separate the top and bottom part crack and bleed.. cannot open mouth to eat food if not will crack bigger... very painfull!!!! have seen a doc on the lips too and had cream to apply also.. i think the creak last more then 2 weeks.... now the crack just recover then kana this kind of thing.. zzzz... why so suay... dar i want muack muack.......

Had a tiff with MX just now... he doesn't want me to apply for prison officer.. he dun like me to have this kind of job... but if i listen to him & give up this opportunity, it may never come again.. u never know wat will happen 5 years down the road, 3 years, 1 year, or even next week... will he change after he go in uni?? or after he graduate?? like wat joanne oh says love is unpredictable...yea.. and it's very true... always the case that hurts lots of pple... Maybe to him it's just another job.. but to me.. it concerns my future... ultimately, i have to make a decision, after giving it much tot, i choose to give up.. not really feel like explaining the reasons here....
i love u dar.. just hope to cherish wat i have now....

One more thing to add... my house water heater something wrong le... the water everytime too hot.. then nowadays sometimes the heater not working have to shower with cold water!!! me bth le... i cannot take it.... have to bug my mum do something abt it.....
i can't tag in jerlyn's blog... something must be wrong with my server... really suay today... forgot to do something at work.. causing a lot of trouble and extra work to be done... lucky my supervisor didn't blame me.... *sad*