ALIVE

hmm... typing this title.. let me remember of the song that i used to like... ALIVE by SPEED; the jap gers group.. the group has already disbanded long ago... actually i still like the song now...
well.. i'm not trying to tell u abt the song.. the title alive means that i'm still alive and eating(kicking) although i didn't update my blog... i used eating instead of kicking cos i eat a lot!!!... i was so damn lazy..... and i'm guilty abt it..
yes i did it again... i bite my tongue the second time... fanastic... is there anyone so careless then me in the world? this time was when eating hokkien mee at CS level 3 food court during lunch time, 2 days ago... and i left my cream at my bf's house, which means i can only have it back on friday after he book out.. yea.. and it's gonna be a long one... cos he will not get to book in again... it's his last book out from army.. perhaps not LAST... cos men have to go on re-service... hur hur... feel that i'm gonna be controlled... as he is already quite controlling now...
Had a very tired day today... both body and mind.... was so busy.. george was on course and arthur on MC... and I have to do all the work!!!! damn!!! from morning reached office.. was late but that was my usual 'late'... ok.. on the computers, mine and george's... start to do the everyday B.A.U. ... was kind of thirsty then realised it was lunch time already.. usually i reached office around 9:15 to 9:25, do my work then go to pantry to collect water around 10+... anyway.. went for lunch.. came back and continue on the endless work... do and do and much more seems to come... untill i found out that i was rushing already cos it's 5 pm and i haven get the things done not even 80%... start to kan cheong and i did a few mistakes which was corrected by my supervisor... feels so bad cos work for 5 months already still can make such mistakes...* ashamed*.... and yea... till i finished all the work and was packing up to go home... i realise i haven drink a slip of water the whole day, not even during lunch.. and i have not been to the toilet... hiaz.. tml is going to be another day like this... god help me!!!! Many pple in my department got promoted and getting bonus and increment, including my supervisor.. from SO to AM... i so envy them... contract staff dun get bonus and no increment too.. dun think abt getting promoted... i'm just a little contract staff and doing the job of an SO(senior officer)... i'm signing my extended contract on friday... thinking of it... i should go find another job hor... haiz.. adults just get so many problems... i wish i am a teenager again......
went for a little shopping just now but didn't get anything.. cos i feel so fat... it's the worse feeling after heartbreak... i must admit i'm 57kg and going on.... i must lose at least 3 to 4 kg.. but i'm so lazy to even jog... and i can't resist food.. cos i always believe that u never know wat will happen tml, may a car accident??? better eat all the good food in the world be4 u have no chance to taste them... my mum always says i'm toking nonsense.. well that's just wat i think...
Better stop here... i'm finishing the da vinci code.. just a few chapters left.. got to sleep early too.. tml is gonna be a hard day....